The past couple of days I've been coming into work around 4am. Doing the normal filing, paperwork and daily routines until about 8am when my boss comes to work. Then we just typically exchange banter, I finish up around 10 and go home. Sleep. Or atleast attempt to sleep.

Sleep is a funny thing. Your body craves it, your mind craves it but yet when you finally give in and do sleep you get nothing in return. No thank you cards in the mail. No "Hello, how do ya do?" on the bus. Sometimes your body and mind feel "refreshed" but mostly there's nothing. Just an insatiable need to sleep again. Actually thats just me and several other people in this world that have Narcolepsy. It sucks, and no its not like what you see in the movies. Yes, I'm safe to drive. No I don't pass out randomly for no reason. (Though I do get randomly exhausted and feel like sleeping randomly and for no reason sometimes ^_~).

Growing up I just thought I was a normal teen-age gamer. Up all night, downing cases of Mt.Dew and counting the Frags on the score board. Nothing was strange, stay up all night, be tired and exhausted for school...sleep for 4 days straight due to a 72 hour gaming binge. You know, the normal things...right? Thats until I graduated and couldn't sleep at night. Long past were the glory days of Dew and Game. Replaced with Work and a new type of school : College. I just thought I was an insomniac: "Sleep? Thats for Day-Walkers!". I thought as much and got an overnight Job, and scheduled my classes around sleeping in the morning. Suffice to say that jobs in the past but my sleeping habits never changed. Thinking this was weird, and during a tremulous time last year I found out I didn't have Insomnia, instead I had a more-fun sleep disorder. Thats that.

The reason I bring this up is as of late a few people have noticed it. It being my weird sleeping habits, or me falling asleep at random times whilst doing something. I've apologized to some of the people I blew off while sleeping but this is a more public apologize/explanation as to why I am normally asleep when you are awake. A quick just so you know :

I normally sleep 14+ hours a day, and my days do blur together.
I cannot "sleep" for anything less than 8 hours, otherwise I either cannot wake up (Semi-Comatose state) or I get very angry/aggressive.
There ARE time's when I grow exhausted in a manner of minutes. If I'm sitting/lying down at the time I do tend to just pass out. An episode only lasts for about two hours where I abruptly awake.
The majority of the time when I wake up I spend the rest of the day feeling drained and irritable. Its kinda why I'm a jerk most of the time.

And now for something completely different....



My laptop finally breathed its last breath last night after clocking in about a year of service. I was a piece of crap that was a hand-me down from my aunt, yes, but it did service my email/FaceFailk/IM purposes if nothing more. So my aunt gave me a new one, and by new I mean exactly down to the model numbers, date of purchase, specs and everything else of the old one. Unfortunately it has a password on it that I don't know and I really CBF'd reformatting it JUST to use it as a sub-par email/FaceFail/IM machine. I'm not joking, it can't run Youtube. Seriously. It just died. I have three of the exact same laptop sitting in my room, two are completely unusable, one is just...a waste of time.

So I have 200$ left to pay off on the Credit card my TV's on from the local furniture mart. I plan on just paying off the 200$ today and using said furniture mart credit card to purchase an Acer Netbook. *shrugs*.

Another topic of interest are my "Winter Solstice" cards that I'm supposed to get done by the end of the month. Yeah. Not going to happen now. I don't have a computer with Photoshop on it and I don't have access to one that does. Soooo when I get around actually finding a place of EASY access that I can spend aboot 15 hours at to work on it, so be it. Until then...Sorry?